I feel like there has been a constant battle between performing arts and museums. Although we fight the same battles and respect each others sectors, there is still a divide.
Since starting my new position, I have found great joy working in the performing arts field. I found that I have a renewed passion for the arts and life. However, this poses a slight conflict because I am still fond of museums. My thesis is on museums, specifically culture-based museums. With this feeling of confliction, I am struggling with writing and researching. I am still working at the American Swedish Historical Museum with cut back hours. I really love this place; however, since starting my new position and the cut of hours, I feel that I am not growing in the position. But I don’t want to quit… It’s a conflict.
As I near the completion of making up my assignments from my horrendous semester, I am still interested in my thesis; however, I can’t help but wonder about a different topic. Upon my readings and direct personal experience, I started thinking about art education. Originally, I did want to focus on art education and diversity as a potential thesis topic, but I felt I couldn’t develop this thesis beyond this phase.
Even now, I am still struggling with how to make the topic of art education relevant to administrators and interesting. Although it is not too late to change, I am still very interested in my topic of culture-based museums. I guess my real struggle is whether I want to continue a career in museums.
Since junior year of college, I have wanted to work in museums. It took me a long time to find something that I enjoyed and could have a rewarding career. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed my major and still wanted to attend law school after college. However, I just knew that wouldn’t have made be happy. Museums made me happy. Understanding the ins and outs of an institution that are both visually and sensory hubs of nontraditional concepts of education was what I wanted as a career. Even as I write this I am still battling. I love museums; but at this time I just can’t see myself working in one. For now, maybe I am meant to work in the performing arts and I should stop being dramatic… I love change. It helps me feel like I am growing and I love that this is not the end of my growth. Who knows I might end up going to law school after all.
I just wanted to share some of my thoughts as I continue to work through school and life. But I am excited to be back on track!!! Until next time.